Speaker: Beth Buelow has been part of the C3 Community since March 2018 and has loved every minute of it. She’s a business owner; leadership, team, and mentor coach; author, speaker, and mediator, and she has added photographer to the list of ways she wants to be known in the world.
Musician: Spencer LaJoye is an East Coast singer/songwriter from the Midwest making queer indie folk music for everyone. The 2021 Kerrville Songwriting Competition winner spins crystalline vocals through a loop pedal while strumming an acoustic guitar in charming, banter-heavy performances that keep audiences laughing one moment and weeping the next.
Music: Spencer LaJoye
Gathering Host: Rod Van Abbema
Music: Spencer LaJoye
Meditation: Wayne Johnson
Moment of Silence
Reading/Teaching: Beth Buelow
I keep pulling it out – the old map of my inner path
I squint closely at it, trying to see some hidden road
that maybe I’ve missed, but there’s nothing there now
except some well travelled paths.
they have seen my footsteps often, held my laughter, caught my tears.
I keep going over the old map but now the roads lead nowhere, a meaningless wilderness where life is dull and futile.
“toss away the old map,” she says
“you must be kidding!” I reply.
she looks at me with Sarah eyes
and repeats “toss it away.
It’s of no use where you’re going.”
“I have to have a map!” I cry, “even if it takes me nowhere.
I can’t be without direction,”
“but you are without direction,” she says,
“so why not let go, be free?”
so there I am – tossing away the old map,
sadly fearfully, putting it behind me.
“whatever will I do?” wails my security
“trust me” says my midlife soul.
no map, no specific directions, no “this way ahead” or “take a left”. how will l know where to go?
how will I find my way? no map!
but then my midlife soul whispers
“there was a time before maps when pilgrims travelled by the stars.” It is time for the pilgrim in me to travel in the dark,
to learn to read the stars that shine in my soul.
I will walk deeper into the dark of my night.
I will wait for the stars. trust their guidance.
and let their light be enough for me.
– Joyce Rupp, Old Maps No Longer Work
Music: Spencer LaJoye
Gathering Host: Rod Van Abbema
Music: Spencer LaJoye
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